Day 27

ALERT!! ALERT!!! ALERT 0 READERS!! ALERT!!! I had my first "skinny" dream!!!! I was dreaming about hanging out with some girl friends on a trip and we were shopping and I found all these cute tops and then I was RUNNING ahead of them to burn some calories. Later I saw a reflection of myself in a mirror, I was wearing an AWESOME red jacket with some major flair around the collar,  I was probably a size 8 - 10. lol! I looked so cute!!! lol! I had skinny legs, was very active and it was so exciting!!

I woke up, was stretching and opening my eyes when I realized what I had just been dreaming, it was wonderful! I almost logged on and started telling all of you, my 0 readers!! lol!

What a HUGE thing, to actually dream and kind of experiencing my body being smaller, so cool...LOVED it! I woke up feeling so happy.

There are times when I think my desire for food, real food, is gonna ruin everything. I have really hard days - to not eat any food but only drink liquids for an indefinite period of time not knowing when you can eat again - it's hard, really hard. Especially for someone with food issues. As they say at the weight-loss clinic - nobody got to this point because of hunger. The drive for food is unbelievably strong. I'm sure there are people out there who don't understand or get it, who judge people who are fat very harshly. But they don't understand the addiction, the mind messes with us. I almost feel like obesity is a mental disorder rather than a physical disease. I feel like the mental disorder manifests with a physical symptom, but the problem is in the brain.

Having a dream like I did, it's the first time my brain has started living in a new reality for me. As far as I am concerned, this dream was more important than the 22.2 lbs I've lost. This is monumental. I can start really seeing a different future, and my unconscious mind is catching up. To feel a thinner, more active body, to run with easy joy, to casually catch my reflection in a mirror and see myself thin in a dream. That's huge! I feel really good today knowing that the changes are happening inside, not just out.

It's a WONDERFUL day 26, my 0 readers...WONDERFUL!!