Day 20

0 readers, it's been a hard couple of days. Worry for my sister is extremely high. Fortunately I've spoken with her several times and she seems to be stabilizing but her doctor is out for two weeks so she has to wait to see her. This is upsetting but doable.

Now, onto the next thing, you know how I came up with that GREAT idea to chew and spit out...apparently that can turn into an eating disorder??? WHAT?? Oh lord, I'm screwed! lol! I really thought my brilliant plan as brilliant. It satisfied the cravings, I haven't been dying for any of my favorites now and can easily move past the need for crunch, salt, taste, food, whatever. So...crap! lol! I don't know. I can't promise I won't do it again while on this diet. I am probably going to be off of food for a year, I will probably need to do this again in order to avoid actually cheating on the diet and eating - which, BTW, makes you intolerant to eating solid food so once I'm ready to ween myself off, I have to slowly introduce food again over like three weeks.

What to do, what to do!! Oh the adventures of extreme weight-loss and dealing with food addiction!! :(

So, fun stuff!!

My clothes are starting to get loose and I am faced with the idea that soon I will need to go down in sizes.

First, let me promote my absolute FAVORITE shopping site for plus size: www.onestopplus.com this place is a gem. Amazing clothes, so many styles, hip, casual, formal, they have it all and the stuff is NICE and fairly inexpensive as well. I can't tell you how many compliments I've gotten on my outfits since shopping there, it's hard for a fat girl to feel like she's totally fitting in or in style. With this place I have been able to find amazing swimsuits, casual clothes, jeans, formal. It's awesome.

So what I did was get 10 t-shirts in 2 sizes lower than now and then 4 sizes lower, as well as 2 jeans for each step-down size. I get these really cheap and easy to figure out. I didn't want to spend much on my transition wardrobe and right now have only spent a little over 200 for 26 shirts and 4 jeans. Can't beat that price 0 readers!!!

I do my weigh-in tomorrow, hoping for another 5 lb loss, we will see if my chew and spit theory effected my weight-loss, I sure hope not! (obviously, lol!)

I'm tired, 0 readers. It's been a hard few days. If I was still able to drink, I would go have one tonight! lol!